From "A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius" by Dave Eggers:

I tried about a million times to fix you, but it was so wrong for me to want to save you because I only wanted to eat you to make me stronger, I only wanted to devour all of you, I was a cancer--Oh but I do this for you. Don't you see I do this for you? I have done this all for you. I pretend that I do not but I do. I eat you to save you. I drink you to make you new. I gorge myself on all you, and I stand, dripping, with fists, with heaving shoulders--I will look stupid, I will crawl drenched in blood and shit, I will--Oh look at those birds, on their stiff tiny legs and--There is nowhere I stop and you begin. I am exhausted . . .

what does it fucking take what do you want how much do you want because I am willing and I'll stand before you and I'll raise my arms and give you my chest and throat and wait, and I've been so old for so long, for you, for you, I want it fast and right through me--Oh do it do it, you motherfuckers, do it you fuckers finally, finally, finally.



I realize this doesn't make sense if you haven't read the whole (very long) book. But oh my god.